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Hey, everyone.

I want to thank everyone who has commented on this journal and sent notes offering me well wishes, advice, and concern. It really means a lot to me that you have all been so understanding of my situation.

I'm nowhere near ready to get back to business, and a lot of you told me that I should take anywhere from a month or two off anyway, but I at least wanted to share some thoughts of how we got to this point and where we need to go in the future.

As I mentioned before, ever since I moved out on my own in September of 2007, I had been taking on more commissions, projects, and side things than I really should have. I'm up to my forehead in commissions I owe, I stupidly took on projects I prolly shouldn't have which is no fault of the project heads, by the way...I even more stupidly decided to go and do side things that I shouldn't have such as Lameplay Theater. It was fun and I'll miss it, mind you, but I really shouldn't have done it for as long as I did, especially with a practically nonexistent viewer base. Even things like the Creature of Whim packs are among some of the admittedly bad ideas that I've done, but everything I've done, I did to keep afloat as I'm my only source of income. Sure there was a splurge here or there, but a good lot of what I made went into my overall survival.

While it's still (and the rate things are going, never will be) as much as I'd like to make, I currently make enough to get by at the very least. So I don't have to take on anymore side projects or quick make money projects or anything like that. I appreciate everyone's help, but now it's time to focus on what NEEDS to be done.

First, the commissions. I don't think I need to say anything more about that. They've been there for long enough and they need to GO.

Secondly, given as PayPal has gone total dick with some of its future changes, I'm switching over to Google Wallet in regards to online payments. I suggest you all do the same.

I'm going to be getting out of the Premium Pack business. It helped, but I can't be bothered to make any more when there are so many other things I need to take care of. Once this journal is posted, I'm going to retire the packs and remove the links. I'll publicly post them the contents at a future date so as to not stiff any recent customers.

I'm feeling a bit more confident in my abilities to get stuff done with all the distractions out of the way and feeling allowed to take an extended break once every so often to recharge my batteries, as it were. I'd ask for your patience with me in these times, but I know I already have it. Thank you all so much for caring.
Well, it's finally happened.

After years of nonstop work, turning hobbies into projects, and not allowing myself to do anything else that wasn't a project, I've finally burnt myself out. And not the "oh, I'm just having a bad day" kind of burnout either, the "nothing gives me joy anymore, what's the point of anything, can't bring myself to go to my job without great difficulty, can't even peel myself out of my bed after three hours of staring at the ceiling, been going on for a week now" kind of burnout.

It's that bad.

I can't draw anymore, I can barely game, the simplest things take a stupid amount of effort and what little I do gives me any real satisfaction. It's really quite horrible. And it's come at a pretty bad time with all the recent financial issues, Youtube going copyright strike crazy forcing me to cancel Lameplay Theater (for real this time), and just a whole mess of problems.

I'm not looking for any pity. I just wanted to at least say that I'm going to be out of commission for an indeterminable amount of time while I fix myself. I don't know how long it's going to take, but as long as I've been doing this to myself, I don't expect it to go away in another week.

I apologize.
All right, the good news.

I just finished sending off the $441 I needed to pay off the tax bill I was surprised with earlier this month. In just a few days you all managed to raise little upwards of $263 for me. I thank you for this, you have no idea.

So where did the other $178 come from? Did my mother actually take responsibility for her actions in a timely fashion?

HAW. You so funny.

That actually came out of my bank account. Luckily for me, the remainder of this year's tax return came in a few days ago, so I was able to slap it all together and send it to the IRS in hopes they'll leave me alone and this whole "card that isn't actually mine" nonsense will FINALLY be behind me.

Therein lies the problem.

In doing so, I only have about $80 left to my name. It may look like a lot, but that is NOT enough for me to live off of for the next month (I say month because my next paycheck is for my bills. As much as I have to pay, I'm lucky to have $20 left over).

SO. The point. If you haven't bought the recently released Creature of Whim Pack #6 or any of the CoW Packs released, now is the time to do just that. Once I'm financially stabilized, we'll return to all CoW funds going towards the 1,000 to Victory Campaign.

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Please bear with me for a little while longer, folks. I don't like any of this more than you do, but you can't say that I'm not doing anything about it.

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Hey, everyone.

I want to thank everyone who has commented on this journal and sent notes offering me well wishes, advice, and concern. It really means a lot to me that you have all been so understanding of my situation.

I'm nowhere near ready to get back to business, and a lot of you told me that I should take anywhere from a month or two off anyway, but I at least wanted to share some thoughts of how we got to this point and where we need to go in the future.

As I mentioned before, ever since I moved out on my own in September of 2007, I had been taking on more commissions, projects, and side things than I really should have. I'm up to my forehead in commissions I owe, I stupidly took on projects I prolly shouldn't have which is no fault of the project heads, by the way...I even more stupidly decided to go and do side things that I shouldn't have such as Lameplay Theater. It was fun and I'll miss it, mind you, but I really shouldn't have done it for as long as I did, especially with a practically nonexistent viewer base. Even things like the Creature of Whim packs are among some of the admittedly bad ideas that I've done, but everything I've done, I did to keep afloat as I'm my only source of income. Sure there was a splurge here or there, but a good lot of what I made went into my overall survival.

While it's still (and the rate things are going, never will be) as much as I'd like to make, I currently make enough to get by at the very least. So I don't have to take on anymore side projects or quick make money projects or anything like that. I appreciate everyone's help, but now it's time to focus on what NEEDS to be done.

First, the commissions. I don't think I need to say anything more about that. They've been there for long enough and they need to GO.

Secondly, given as PayPal has gone total dick with some of its future changes, I'm switching over to Google Wallet in regards to online payments. I suggest you all do the same.

I'm going to be getting out of the Premium Pack business. It helped, but I can't be bothered to make any more when there are so many other things I need to take care of. Once this journal is posted, I'm going to retire the packs and remove the links. I'll publicly post them the contents at a future date so as to not stiff any recent customers.

I'm feeling a bit more confident in my abilities to get stuff done with all the distractions out of the way and feeling allowed to take an extended break once every so often to recharge my batteries, as it were. I'd ask for your patience with me in these times, but I know I already have it. Thank you all so much for caring.
Well, it's finally happened.

After years of nonstop work, turning hobbies into projects, and not allowing myself to do anything else that wasn't a project, I've finally burnt myself out. And not the "oh, I'm just having a bad day" kind of burnout either, the "nothing gives me joy anymore, what's the point of anything, can't bring myself to go to my job without great difficulty, can't even peel myself out of my bed after three hours of staring at the ceiling, been going on for a week now" kind of burnout.

It's that bad.

I can't draw anymore, I can barely game, the simplest things take a stupid amount of effort and what little I do gives me any real satisfaction. It's really quite horrible. And it's come at a pretty bad time with all the recent financial issues, Youtube going copyright strike crazy forcing me to cancel Lameplay Theater (for real this time), and just a whole mess of problems.

I'm not looking for any pity. I just wanted to at least say that I'm going to be out of commission for an indeterminable amount of time while I fix myself. I don't know how long it's going to take, but as long as I've been doing this to myself, I don't expect it to go away in another week.

I apologize.

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Alan E. Solivan
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United States
Current Residence: West Lafayette, Indiana
Favorite genre of music: Instrumental, Video Game
Favorite style of art: Cartoon, Manga/Anime
Operating System: Windows Vista/7
MP3 player of choice: foobar2000
Wallpaper of choice: Anything I like
Favorite cartoon character: I got a laundry list SO long...
Personal Quote: Ya can't rely on anyone these days, ya gotta do EVERYTHING yourself.
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:iconkurseofkings:
KurseofKings Featured By Owner May 12, 2015
I'm looking for Neko Majin's Cat House. Do you know what happened to it?
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JuacoProductionsArts Featured By Owner May 7, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hello again
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BasherTheUC Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
What happened to the TvTome forum?
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DarkonFullPower Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2015
I FINALLY found you again! Sup Mr. O.M.A.
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AlanES Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
HEY there.
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Not-the-New-Account Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2015  Student Artist
Thanks for the :+fav: c:
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:iconalanes:
AlanES Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Naw prob.
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sesshi-girl Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2015
Boop.
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AlanES Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Awwww, I appreciate that. : D
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JuacoProductionsArts Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
How is it going?
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AlanES Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
It's goin'.
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JuacoProductionsArts Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh. I'm fine.
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Ilovefallingcows25 Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2015  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Hello
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pablotetoons Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks a lot for the fave!
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AlanES Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Not a problem! So far it's quite the hilarious story! Chapter 2 made me want QUITE BADLY to be better at drawing ponies.
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pablotetoons Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Oh, wow, thank you!  I'm glad I could inspire something in you!  It's...kind of an honor, really!
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pablotetoons Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
And the watch, thank you!
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pablotetoons Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Wha-hey!  And the other fave, too!
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MateoRa Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2015
Do you intend to make CoW pack containing all 5 packs?
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AlanES Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
No, sorry.
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Historyman14 Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2015
Can you do a Morrgian x Chun-Li pic?
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JuacoProductionsArts Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Okay. Now I'm ready for a request or commission after cleaning up some of my pending list.
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AlanES Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Cool, hope you get some!
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JuacoProductionsArts Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Feel free to ask me right now, if you like.
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