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GREAT MIGHTY GRATITUDE EDIT: Oh my sweet merciful LORD, I already got the money.

I won't name names, I understand people like their anonymity, but I thanked you personally. You know who you are so thank you again if you can see this! Thank you SO MUCH

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I know this isn’t the best thing to open with after months of silence, but I’m left with little choice in the matter.

On the way home from work tonight, I was driving down the highway when I saw a giant red wall coming up my left side out of the corner of my eye. A semi was turning onto my lane and didn’t realize I was there. There was no room to speed up or slow down without getting sideswiped so the only thing I could do was swerve off the road.

I’m fine and the car didn’t suffer any major damage, but the passenger’s side front tire is shot. I was barely able to get home without making new friends behind me the rest of the way. The worst part about this is that the semi driver and all the witnesses to the incident just kept on my their merry way, so I have nothing to go with on this and even if I did, I would be held accountable as a “One Car Accident” for swerving off the road when apparently, you’re not supposed to do that.

So you’re supposed to die, I guess?

Anyway, to get my car towed to my job to get a new tire, altogether, would cost upwards of $200, and that’s only for the tow and the tire alone. Assuming anything else is wrong with the car that I haven’t noticed, there’s no telling how much more this will cost me.

I do NOT have nor do I make that kind of money. If I pay it all off myself, I will starve until my next paycheck.

I cannot take commissions because I have way too much over the span of years that I owe as it is. So I’m going to have to ask for something that I’m fully aware prolly won’t work: Donations.

My Paypal is the same as my email: MisterOhmaATgmailDOTcom. If you can spare anything, ANYTHING AT ALL, please help me.

Hey, everyone.

I want to thank everyone who has commented on this journal and sent notes offering me well wishes, advice, and concern. It really means a lot to me that you have all been so understanding of my situation.

I'm nowhere near ready to get back to business, and a lot of you told me that I should take anywhere from a month or two off anyway, but I at least wanted to share some thoughts of how we got to this point and where we need to go in the future.

As I mentioned before, ever since I moved out on my own in September of 2007, I had been taking on more commissions, projects, and side things than I really should have. I'm up to my forehead in commissions I owe, I stupidly took on projects I prolly shouldn't have which is no fault of the project heads, by the way...I even more stupidly decided to go and do side things that I shouldn't have such as Lameplay Theater. It was fun and I'll miss it, mind you, but I really shouldn't have done it for as long as I did, especially with a practically nonexistent viewer base. Even things like the Creature of Whim packs are among some of the admittedly bad ideas that I've done, but everything I've done, I did to keep afloat as I'm my only source of income. Sure there was a splurge here or there, but a good lot of what I made went into my overall survival.

While it's still (and the rate things are going, never will be) as much as I'd like to make, I currently make enough to get by at the very least. So I don't have to take on anymore side projects or quick make money projects or anything like that. I appreciate everyone's help, but now it's time to focus on what NEEDS to be done.

First, the commissions. I don't think I need to say anything more about that. They've been there for long enough and they need to GO.

Secondly, given as PayPal has gone total dick with some of its future changes, I'm switching over to Google Wallet in regards to online payments. I suggest you all do the same.

I'm going to be getting out of the Premium Pack business. It helped, but I can't be bothered to make any more when there are so many other things I need to take care of. Once this journal is posted, I'm going to retire the packs and remove the links. I'll publicly post them the contents at a future date so as to not stiff any recent customers.

I'm feeling a bit more confident in my abilities to get stuff done with all the distractions out of the way and feeling allowed to take an extended break once every so often to recharge my batteries, as it were. I'd ask for your patience with me in these times, but I know I already have it. Thank you all so much for caring.
Well, it's finally happened.

After years of nonstop work, turning hobbies into projects, and not allowing myself to do anything else that wasn't a project, I've finally burnt myself out. And not the "oh, I'm just having a bad day" kind of burnout either, the "nothing gives me joy anymore, what's the point of anything, can't bring myself to go to my job without great difficulty, can't even peel myself out of my bed after three hours of staring at the ceiling, been going on for a week now" kind of burnout.

It's that bad.

I can't draw anymore, I can barely game, the simplest things take a stupid amount of effort and what little I do gives me any real satisfaction. It's really quite horrible. And it's come at a pretty bad time with all the recent financial issues, Youtube going copyright strike crazy forcing me to cancel Lameplay Theater (for real this time), and just a whole mess of problems.

I'm not looking for any pity. I just wanted to at least say that I'm going to be out of commission for an indeterminable amount of time while I fix myself. I don't know how long it's going to take, but as long as I've been doing this to myself, I don't expect it to go away in another week.

I apologize.

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The Little Squeeze by AlanES
The Little Squeeze
With special guest Amy Wallace (:iconlimeth:).

Well, you squish a malleable body, what do you think is gonna happen?
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FLOAT DES FLOAT by AlanES
FLOAT DES FLOAT
Only without Kevin Owens and his crap.

So while recovering from the burnout, I had taken to SAI and tried to get better at the whole digital inking thing. I think I finally got it and here is one of the earlier results.
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Mike Renner Commission: Part The 25th by AlanES
Mike Renner Commission: Part The 25th
I'LL SEE YOUR FEMALE THOR WITH A JANICE, MARVEL

Uhhh...is female Thor still a thing? EDUCATE ME

25th commission for :iconmaikerenna:. Janice has gotten far more Norse God of Thunder since last I worked on her, but that's okay because it's KEWL. Though I dunno about you guys, but I might have unintentionally pulled a He-Man on this one.

SHEEEEEEEEE HAAAAAAS THE POWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
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Alan E. Solivan
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Current Residence: West Lafayette, Indiana
Favorite genre of music: Instrumental, Video Game
Favorite style of art: Cartoon, Manga/Anime
Operating System: Windows Vista/7
MP3 player of choice: foobar2000
Wallpaper of choice: Anything I like
Favorite cartoon character: I got a laundry list SO long...
Personal Quote: Ya can't rely on anyone these days, ya gotta do EVERYTHING yourself.
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:iconsuperdarkess:
superdarkess Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2015  Student General Artist
hey am darkess king!
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:iconmasterd987:
masterd987 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2015
That's some pretty nice art you have there, I especially loved your picture of Anna and Elsa.
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MetaKnuxX8 Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2015
Your art is cool!
Can I give you a request?
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:iconkurseofkings:
KurseofKings Featured By Owner May 12, 2015
I'm looking for Neko Majin's Cat House. Do you know what happened to it?
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JuacoProductionsArts Featured By Owner May 7, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hello again
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BasherTheUC Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2015
What happened to the TvTome forum?
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DarkonFullPower Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2015
I FINALLY found you again! Sup Mr. O.M.A.
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AlanES Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
HEY there.
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Not-the-New-Account Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2015  Student Artist
Thanks for the :+fav: c:
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:iconalanes:
AlanES Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Naw prob.
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sesshi-girl Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Boop.
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:iconalanes:
AlanES Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Awwww, I appreciate that. : D
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JuacoProductionsArts Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
How is it going?
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AlanES Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
It's goin'.
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JuacoProductionsArts Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh. I'm fine.
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Ilovefallingcows25 Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2015  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Hello
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pablotetoons Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks a lot for the fave!
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AlanES Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Not a problem! So far it's quite the hilarious story! Chapter 2 made me want QUITE BADLY to be better at drawing ponies.
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pablotetoons Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Oh, wow, thank you!  I'm glad I could inspire something in you!  It's...kind of an honor, really!
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pablotetoons Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
And the watch, thank you!
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pablotetoons Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Wha-hey!  And the other fave, too!
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MateoRa Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2015
Do you intend to make CoW pack containing all 5 packs?
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:iconalanes:
AlanES Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
No, sorry.
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Historyman14 Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2015
Can you do a Morrgian x Chun-Li pic?
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