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Well, it's finally happened.

After years of nonstop work, turning hobbies into projects, and not allowing myself to do anything else that wasn't a project, I've finally burnt myself out. And not the "oh, I'm just having a bad day" kind of burnout either, the "nothing gives me joy anymore, what's the point of anything, can't bring myself to go to my job without great difficulty, can't even peel myself out of my bed after three hours of staring at the ceiling, been going on for a week now" kind of burnout.

It's that bad.

I can't draw anymore, I can barely game, the simplest things take a stupid amount of effort and what little I do gives me any real satisfaction. It's really quite horrible. And it's come at a pretty bad time with all the recent financial issues, Youtube going copyright strike crazy forcing me to cancel Lameplay Theater (for real this time), and just a whole mess of problems.

I'm not looking for any pity. I just wanted to at least say that I'm going to be out of commission for an indeterminable amount of time while I fix myself. I don't know how long it's going to take, but as long as I've been doing this to myself, I don't expect it to go away in another week.

I apologize.
All right, the good news.

I just finished sending off the $441 I needed to pay off the tax bill I was surprised with earlier this month. In just a few days you all managed to raise little upwards of $263 for me. I thank you for this, you have no idea.

So where did the other $178 come from? Did my mother actually take responsibility for her actions in a timely fashion?

HAW. You so funny.

That actually came out of my bank account. Luckily for me, the remainder of this year's tax return came in a few days ago, so I was able to slap it all together and send it to the IRS in hopes they'll leave me alone and this whole "card that isn't actually mine" nonsense will FINALLY be behind me.

Therein lies the problem.

In doing so, I only have about $80 left to my name. It may look like a lot, but that is NOT enough for me to live off of for the next month (I say month because my next paycheck is for my bills. As much as I have to pay, I'm lucky to have $20 left over).

SO. The point. If you haven't bought the recently released Creature of Whim Pack #6 or any of the CoW Packs released, now is the time to do just that. Once I'm financially stabilized, we'll return to all CoW funds going towards the 1,000 to Victory Campaign.

CREATURE OF WHIM Premium Pack #1 -Available Now!- by AlanES CREATURE OF WHIM Premium Pack #2 -Available Now!- by AlanES CREATURE OF WHIM Premium Pack #3 -Available Now!- by AlanES CREATURE OF WHIM Premium Pack #4 -Available Now!- by AlanES CREATURE OF WHIM Premium Pack #5 -Available Now!- by AlanES CREATURE OF WHIM Premium Pack #6 -Available Now! by AlanES

Please bear with me for a little while longer, folks. I don't like any of this more than you do, but you can't say that I'm not doing anything about it.
I'm sure you've all noticed the $12 price tag on the latest CoW pack.

CREATURE OF WHIM Premium Pack #6 -Available Now! by AlanES

Not only that but the fact that I have the gall to charge that much for one pic less than normal, much like Pack #4 before it. Just like then, I'm in a fix, only it's much larger than last time. I'm going to get in a lot of trouble to saying this, but she is making no effort to help me so I am going to make no effort to protect her.

When I was a teenager, my mother bullied me into getting a credit card for her under my name. If I didn't do so, I would have to deal with being threatened to get thrown out of the house, so I had no choice but to comply. She cancelled the card and never paid the debt back. Years later, the collection agencies came after me because while the card was hers, it was under my name. I was taken to court over this and had to force her to own up to her debt.

I thought that was the last I would ever have to deal with that mess again, but unfortunately I was wrong. The debt collectors never sent us a specific tax form we needed to fill out on my 2013 tax return and because it was filled out incorrectly, I owe the IRS $441, due April 8th. I told them that I was never given this form and they told me they didn't care. The fact that I never got the form, let alone even KNEW about it, was my responsibility to deal with.

Yeah. Figure that out.

I suggested to my mother since this was once again HER bill under MY name that we could sign up for a payment plan, but she refused as in doing so, the IRS would tack on interest as we went along and she would end up paying more that she would if she paid the $441 straight out. She said that she would pay the taxes straight out.

There are only two weeks left and I haven't heard a word about her making any effort to pay off this debt. But she has the nerve to tell me not to stress about it when stressing about it is all I've been doing because I know how unreliable she can be at times like this. How she loves to wait until the last possible minute.

Know how I know this? She's in no rush to pay off this debt, but she's more than happy to buy me airline tickets to visit the family in the summer for ROUGHLY THE SAME PRICE

As you can see, I am on my own once again on this one.

I absolutely HATE that I have to release the pack early and charge more, not to mention the fact that until this is dealt with, the 1,000 to Victory Campaign is on hold, but if I don't deal with this as soon as possible, I don't even want to imagine what will happen. Please forgive me and understand my situation. I would not be doing this otherwise.

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Well, it's finally happened.

After years of nonstop work, turning hobbies into projects, and not allowing myself to do anything else that wasn't a project, I've finally burnt myself out. And not the "oh, I'm just having a bad day" kind of burnout either, the "nothing gives me joy anymore, what's the point of anything, can't bring myself to go to my job without great difficulty, can't even peel myself out of my bed after three hours of staring at the ceiling, been going on for a week now" kind of burnout.

It's that bad.

I can't draw anymore, I can barely game, the simplest things take a stupid amount of effort and what little I do gives me any real satisfaction. It's really quite horrible. And it's come at a pretty bad time with all the recent financial issues, Youtube going copyright strike crazy forcing me to cancel Lameplay Theater (for real this time), and just a whole mess of problems.

I'm not looking for any pity. I just wanted to at least say that I'm going to be out of commission for an indeterminable amount of time while I fix myself. I don't know how long it's going to take, but as long as I've been doing this to myself, I don't expect it to go away in another week.

I apologize.
Quite Tangible Indeed by AlanES
Quite Tangible Indeed
This was going to be for a future CoW pack, but I'm not sure if there's even going to BE future CoW packs.

So here you go.
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Alan E. Solivan
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Current Residence: West Lafayette, Indiana
Favorite genre of music: Instrumental, Video Game
Favorite style of art: Cartoon, Manga/Anime
Operating System: Windows Vista/7
MP3 player of choice: foobar2000
Wallpaper of choice: Anything I like
Favorite cartoon character: I got a laundry list SO long...
Personal Quote: Ya can't rely on anyone these days, ya gotta do EVERYTHING yourself.
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:iconbashertheuc:
BasherTheUC Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
What happened to the TvTome forum?
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DarkonFullPower Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2015
I FINALLY found you again! Sup Mr. O.M.A.
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AlanES Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
HEY there.
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Not-the-New-Account Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2015  Student Artist
Thanks for the :+fav: c:
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AlanES Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Naw prob.
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sesshi-girl Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2015
Boop.
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:iconalanes:
AlanES Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Awwww, I appreciate that. : D
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JuacoProductionsArts Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
How is it going?
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AlanES Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
It's goin'.
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JuacoProductionsArts Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh. I'm fine.
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Ilovefallingcows25 Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2015  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Hello
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pablotetoons Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks a lot for the fave!
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AlanES Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Not a problem! So far it's quite the hilarious story! Chapter 2 made me want QUITE BADLY to be better at drawing ponies.
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pablotetoons Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Oh, wow, thank you!  I'm glad I could inspire something in you!  It's...kind of an honor, really!
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pablotetoons Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
And the watch, thank you!
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pablotetoons Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Wha-hey!  And the other fave, too!
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MateoRa Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2015
Do you intend to make CoW pack containing all 5 packs?
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:iconalanes:
AlanES Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
No, sorry.
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Historyman14 Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2015
Can you do a Morrgian x Chun-Li pic?
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JuacoProductionsArts Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Okay. Now I'm ready for a request or commission after cleaning up some of my pending list.
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AlanES Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Cool, hope you get some!
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JuacoProductionsArts Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Feel free to ask me right now, if you like.
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AlanES Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm not very good at coming up with requests.
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JNRedmon Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2015
Thank you so much for the fave!
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